“Saree party” 2

Ok saree party is officially over..!! and just thought to make a quick note about it before forgetting how I really felt about the whole thing.. so here we go..  

So, apart from looking like a clown in some kinda circus, which I did…  I really did have a freaking good time with the gals on sat.. we just danced our guts out.. and some of us still cant walk and I don’t feel like I do have any legs anymore.. sigh..! I feel as if my legs were amputated.. yep seriously I danced till I passed out.. that was the only time I reached the breaking point by merely dancing..   

And the saree was no issue to me at all I seriously managed to dance with it and that itself was a big deal.. hahaha.. yep but I tripped on my saree once.. but never did it happen again.. and I managed to walk fairly well and not make a fool outta myself.. but still I have photographic proof as to how bad I still look when I pose for a camera.. I don’t know how it happens I still couldn’t figure out how a person can look the total opposite when they pose in front of a camera.. maybe when I grow up I should create a camera for the non photogenic ppl like me.. 

So summing it all up the highlight of the party was the dancing. so from the time the dance started at around 8pm to the time it ended at 12.30 am, I was on the floor dancing to every single song which was played, from shakira to rihanna to our all time fav sinhala baila. It was just a blast. I have never danced so much in my life and never felt so good dancing. I will never forget this day. Oh yeah Devil lets herself loose on the dance floor! Lol.. wonder how I turned into a social animal after all.. reading my previous post (Saree party 1) makes me wonder that im such a drama queen!!!.. hehehe.. so all in all no serious blunders were made and it was extra bit of fun than the usual night outs..  

Devil Unleashed~

The “Saree Party” 1

Why am I  writing about this, ull find out soon..!! well first of all lemme give u guys a small intro on what this so called saree party is, if that subject made ull wonder what the freaking hell it is.. hmmm.. my version of it, this is a kind of an event where all the school leavers get together ( kind of a reunion but… errm.. not really..) and celebrate their guts out partying.. in other words a ‘social day’ ya some what something like that.. arghh.. then again I really don’t know of a proper definition  to it.. anyway im not a school leaver anyone, im just another ‘less than innocent’ student who’s still trying to find a dent to this world.. *sob sob*  so according to our school customs a social day or rather a saree party is celebrated by both the school leavers and the current A/L batch.. and the main highlight here is, u require a freaking SAREE to attend the partyyy!!! Which is my biggest problem right now… gak..!! 

I swear ive never been this scared the rest of my life.. even though I take great pride in calling myself the devil unleashed.. ive never worn a saree in my entire whole life :( and damn it im gonna wear one for the first time this year.. how it would end up being..!! god knows..!! but I can just picture my pathetic self draped in a 6 yard saree to be precise.. and did I ever mention the fact that im thin as ever..? darn… 

I don’t know why everyone at school is soooooo excited about this.. I get so freaked out and nervous each time this topic comes up (sarees, make up, shoes etc..) oh brother..!! I mean don’t they have anything better to talk about.. errr.. why am I the only person who finds all this weird..?why..why..why??? I’m always in the middle of one crisis or another. When others consider some particular situation or moment as a perfect bliss, im tooo busy worrying to enjoy them. gulp..! maybe I do suffer from social anxiety or anti socialism after all.. oh god.. I never knew it would take me 18 years to realize this fact.. sigh..!   

And I hate make up!! all that load of crap on me makes me look 1000 times worse than what I usually am. And I thought make up was a beauty enhancer. And also did I say high-heels makes it far more difficult for me to sustain upright balance. Phew.. now all this makes me wonder why was i born a girl in the first place.. it makes life soooo much complicated. 

I was thinking what would be the worst that could ever happen to me in this kinda situation.?? umm.. and I managed to come up with a whole list of them.. :)  

1. Maybe I’d trip and fall onto a ditch or something.. in front of a whole big crowd who would witness it.. and I can be famous in just one day or maybe even enter my name in the school history for falling to a ditch at the saree party 2007..!! oh yeahhh

2. I’d make a fool out of myself on the dance floor, then trip on the saree again ( yes saree, gosh! enough already!) and fall flat on my face.

3. The tight saree jacket might deprive me from oxygen.. and what if it ultimately gives up and just pops off.. yikes.. no way!!!

4. OMG!! i might take some pics to prove the tragedy! the humiliation!! the suffering!! so that everyone can look upon this tragic ugliness! Damn.. (ya im one of the non-photogenic ppl.. interesting creatures eh..? )

5. What if the pins come off…. So then I’ll have to walk all the way up praying that nothing embarrassing would happen and then my saree rips off all of a sudden… goshh.. lets not go there now..!!

Ugh.. all this insane thoughts keeps rushing through my mind right now. And my imaginations are running wild to the extreme..!!  I assume that’s coz im  super crazyyy and extra bit of eccentric than what I am usually.. so its official.. this will be the dreadful year of my life. most messed up, unhealthy blah blah.. man, im such a sucker.. I NEED therapy..!! seriously.. AHHHH…

Anyway on a positive note im gonna wear a saree alas, YA RIGHT!! And look all lady like.. hahahahaha.. so I don’t care how much horrible I look, however much i make a huge jackass outta myself.. im gonna do it!! Its all a life time experience.. and it took a quarter of my life to bring me here..lol. sheesh.. I sound soo pathetic even when trying to end this post.  

So im writing this blog, merely so that you, my friend (or random-blog-reader), will now have the opportunity to propose my name for the Nobel Peace Prize for my selfless blonde sayings :) And for those of you that know me in real life can now make this an opportunity to roar with laughter, gasp or choke yourselves to death. :D   

PS>> anyway ill keep ull posted about ‘THE DAY’ and if I didn’t have a part 2 for this, it means that im officially dead.. or ive dug a whole on the ground and hiding there till things seizes away..

~ Devil Unleashed

Fasting…

The month of Ramadan started off today.. and ill be refrained from food or any sorta liquid for a whole month starting from today.. not that I have any issue of being hungry, but since it’s the first fast today, im a bit unstable since my body refuses to function coz of the lack of food.. :( and my sanity level is going way down.. but so far so good.. :) 

Im really bored and jobless at the moment and I have no food to entertain my self nor drink the magical liquid which is also called as ‘water’ to quench my thirst. Came online thinking that I would at least have someone to chat to, to get away from my hunger pants.. but to my biggest disappointment there weren’t any except for one person who also ditched me coz of work..!!! sigh..  

School today was ok.. but ill be missing my most awaited period ‘THE INTERVAL’ for 30 days.. waahhh.. and I badly feel the loss of weight in my school bag without my lunch box and water bottle. My friends were very understanding.. they actually went through all the trouble to not have their breakfast in front of me. so me happy about that..  our B.S teacher was practically throwing a ball coz i was very feeling veryy lethargic to interrupt her and give her a hard time as usual.. she had the nerve to say ‘i wish this would go on forever so ull be quiet’ mean mean world..!!

My stomach gave an angry growl now and my throat is dry like the Sahara desert.. I feel like my head is almost gonna split into tiny pieces any time. I keep reminding myself of the finer things like chocolates, milk shake, biscuit pudding, gateau, ahh nooo I cant take this anymore..!!! im not supposed to do this.. I need to control my self.. anyway that’s the main objective in fasting to feel the hunger of another person and also self control..  

There’s approximately 3 hours and 15 minutes left to break fast.. and im actually surprised that I survived most of the day.. not baaad..!! ill be having classes in a while so I wouldn’t be feeling it this much when I engage myself in something productive..  

But im strong even though my stomach gave another growl to indicate it needs food.. just shut up ur not getting any till 6.15..!! arghh..! im not weak and also I will not falter when I see foood..!! ya that’s the spirit.. after all this is the month for rebuliding our spiritual strength..

~ Devil Unleashed

Time machine

hi!i’m back! the everlost aquamarine’s back. God what a month it has been! I dont know where it went actually. I guess that’s because i was never quite doing anything productive. I was watching flick after flick(that was fun though, I must say) and nothing more. Havent touched a book since vacation! I’m really hoping I don’t flunk, but at the rate I’m going… Fingers crossed for me all of you out there. The thing is I’m pretty much a last minute type person, nothing I would encourage but.. Anyway that’s that. School’s gonna technically start this Tuesday, however we’re going on a school trip for a week to some life ed centre, I’m really hoping that’s gonna be fun, coz Im sooo not channeled to listen to some boring lectures trading in my flick hours! Haha. It’s gonna be weird keeping away from home for so long. No contact as far as I know. But we get to put on those devil pants and do all sorts of crazy stuff. Even though I’m aquamarine, Im gonna be the devil unleashed!

Hope all of you out there our age had a great vacation, which also hopefully was more fruitful than mine , and all of you who arent our age, just live with it! It’ll get better..hopefully..maybe…hmm…

 Take care! ~Aquamarine

Memories… Resolutions…

Im almost done with my holidays and now getting ready to get back to school.. sigh…!! So woke up this morning with the motivation to somehow clean up my room which currently looks like a storm has invaded the place. yep.. that’s how it always looked like.. anyway im tired of working all day cleaning up my messy cupboard , dusting off the books I haven’t touched for ages… sooo thought of having a break for a while and to make a blog entry about the whole experience

Good thing about arranging my room is, i found certain stuff which has been missing for a long time which I thought ill never find and made countless fights with my sister thinking that she was the culprit for stealing them.. hyak.. for some reason me and my sister never got along, all our lives my sister and I have been extreme opposites, we were never close.. but ‘sometimes’ we had our rare moments of sisterhood too :D  Hmm… now I can write about a hundred posts on this one and it’s a whole different area which is to be written.. so moving on..

Im also the kinda person who loves to collect all sorta random tokens, cards, notes and other such crap for the mere sake of memories. And today I had the time to go through all of them and reminisce about the moments of the past which brought back many wonderful memories. Those memories are a bit vague now, and I can’t really remember what it felt like to be in that situation back then. But for some reason I know I did feeI it at its best.and how much happy i felt after all those lil escapades.… even though  some of them were done at the expense of many poor souls =) lol.. I miss them all. I really do.sigh..!! I really wish life had a rewind button to it.. I still think we are forced to grow up too fast, but then again we don’t live forever so I guess its up to us to make the right choices and make it worth living or basically just to go with the flow and try to cope with growing up one day at a time.

Umm… so getting back to business… I hope to make a brand new start this term, not give a hard time to the teachers, be a good girl, work as twice as hard to make up for everything I’ve lost during the holidays, get rid of my civiar addiction towards the net and most of all to study hard or at least get used to the good habit of revising stuff at the end of each day. Oh boy.. now that’s a whole list of things to be done.. hmph..!! hopefully ill get all these things drilled into my head and stick to it for as long as I can.heh.. anyway I have a problem where things that wont change my life dramatically don’t stay in my mind for more than 10 minutes.. lol..

Aiight im out for day.. laterz ppl.. have to get the cleaning done before it gets too late and before I get tooo lazyyy… tadaa

~Devil Unleashed 

Grouch…

Ugh.. This whole holiday has been a total bummer. A one month holiday dragged on in a mind numblingly boring manner. I was looking forward for this time to come and whoosh its almost over and I suddenly realized there’s only 2 weeks left to go!!! Funny how time flies.. Ahhh life’s sooo unfair.. first of all it was the exam burden which made me cram my head over everything just to make sure I end up with decent grades so I can end up going home safe.. and no my parents aren’t demons, they are very understanding folks ive ever come across.. but still I don’t wanna let them down..(dutiful daughter eh? lol) and the task wasn’t any easier (like DUH!!) after so much of effort to revise a whole lotta stuff with so little time, with so many days of hard work put in to it and weeks of sleepless nights and suffering just to keep in mind some stuff which I don’t see will help me in any way in the future. I sooo hate the government for making us go through all this rat race which is so frustrating and overwhelming.. So basically I needed this holiday to chill and refresh myself and my mind from everything I went through during the last few weeks of the term.. hmph..

I thought the definition of a holiday was a period of recreation, a fabulous time filled with heavenly gestures and moments. Which includes meeting up with a clique of friends for a movie or hanging out for lunch with the gang or walk on the beach and end up chasing each other or go for a game or something like that!! But instead im spending my holidays going for tuition/extra/ revision classes every waking moment and coming home dead tired at the end of each day, doing home work, pass papers, projects, getting ready for mock exams and again waking up the next morning for another days proceeds of classes. And this aint the holiday I was craving for..!! ARRRGHH..!!

Life is truly a battle and im figuring out how hard it is to survive by simply fighting them all, I seriously cant take it anymore its just a goal after another and I don’t see an end towards it.. or maybe I should go to sleep one day and never end up waking the next day, or I wish I had some invisible power where I can hide my self from the rest of the world when I need to orr some extraordinary power which would help me to slide over the realities of life. Seriously I had enough.. I very badly need a break. I’m getting bored with coming to the same house, and sitting around the whole day doing nothing at all. I feel like im gonna loose my mind and forget the grounds im standing on. and yes.. Im writing this with bitterness, anger and a whole lot more negative attitudes.

Hmmm.. its pointless whining over things, I might as well live it up..!! this is what life is and this is what it has in store for me.. anyway penning this down made me feel a whole lot better. So being all positive like the saying its not the meek who shall inherit the earth, its the fighters..!! so i hope one day this will pay off and ill wait for that one day to come soon..=)

And yup.., this morning, I felt so good coz I had a good dose of sleep (haha.. no classes ) and spent most of the time chatting to my wonky pals online while listening to some soothing, surreal melodies.. alas got some time to relax away after a loong time.. I have more good news, planned a get together with friends to catch up with stuff at my place on Thursday so waiting eagerly for that.. me gonna have a blast woohoo!!

~Devil Unleashed

howdy!

Ok here’s today’s scoop! I feel rather obliged to say something bout my buddy-in-crime… We’ve done soo many freaky things together, looking back at it makes u think what the hell was running through our minds! Time has flown since the last time we got our heads knocked together and almost thrown out of our school class window by one of our teachers who thought we were weird in certain ways that are unmentionable in this blog, if u get what I mean . Anyway I assure you the teacher was a bit out of his head in many little ways. He just plain didn’t like us.. It was interesting, everything we went thru during those periods at school. We used to cover for each other when we didn’t bring books or something like that, and still end up getting caught and getting one of those good head-bangs. And yes, for those of you who are wondering, it DID hurt!  So likewise there were quite a number of little moments that made our bond magically strong and I wouldn’t trade it for anything! (even the terribly horrific moments where u just wish u could  dig a hole so far deep into the ground, that the Earth will crack, and get into it and build a shelter thereJ) 

Then I’m off for the day!! See you ppl tomorrow… maybe at least… going to watch a movie with my friends. Will try to log in at night. Byebye!!!

~ Aquamarine

Kindred Spirits

Ok here’s my first official post. I have no idea what exactly I have in mind to talk about but I felt like writing something coz im inhumanly jobless and extremely bored to death and have nothing left other than just writing something random. if not I know I would just bang my head on the nearest wall any minute as a result of civiar retardation caused by boredom.. so I might as well start writing something.. ok here we go.. I guess I should write something about my best pal in the whole wide world and also my current blog partner

Hmmm..well.. for some the defining moments of friendship are profound while for others it’s smaller gestures that loom large. However for me it is that best friends are either freakishly alike or so opposite from each other that one wonders how they manage to be friends at all. It is this quality of random mix and match which makes best friends different from siblings, and any other types of relationships that exists on planet earth. Sometimes best friends have little in common with each other apart from the lifetime memories they hold within them. And that’s how I feel about my best friend.

I have no freaking idea the very first time I met her, I guess it all happened when we were this reallllly small brats who didn’t even know to spell certain words to be precise. lol.. and god knows how we became good friends in no time and how it grew into a strange bond before we even knew it. In simple terms we just ‘clicked’ just like that. I had many friends whom I used to call my best friends but they all just dropped out at some point of life, but she stood out from the rest and we managed to hang onto each other no matter what.
She was someone who knew everything I felt. She knew my every weakness, and the problems I’ve dealt with. She understood my wonders, and listened to my dreams. She listened to me when I wanted to speak my heart out to someone, and knew what it all meant, She taught me how to dance at social events even though she horribly sucked at it too (u know what I mean )

Whoa.. what a journey it has been. A journey of almost 10 years and still running! Yet I cant seem to figure out what exactly makes us sooo close. We don’t share the same interests, watch same movies, listen to the same music (well.. we do ‘at times’ ) or even look alike in any way (some claim so, again which we don’t believe in) but the truth is, every time I look back at my life, all the crazy childhood escapades I’ve lived through, I cant help but remember her. She is an integral part of who I am and an unforgettable contribution to my life story. I maybe insecure about lot of things in life but I’m absolutely secure in our friendship.

However this is one of the many beautiful stories in the great book of best friendships. Even though I don’t see u that much like we used to, u’ll always remain my best friend forever.. Anyway like the saying goes everyone should have atleast one good friend to act goofy with no matter how serious ur life tends to be, and im happy to say ive found mine.

So girlfriend this is for u for being a great pal and being there whenever I needed u and most importantly just being the loony toon you are. =) I looove u more than anything. Like everyone says ill never be able to spell friendship without u!! oh man, I bet this would beat any soap opera ever. ever seen a devil this corny…?? hmmm….lol…

~ Devil Unleashed

Zzzzz…

OMG! I’m sooo half asleep, it’s not funny!! Im trying hard and I mean it when I say Im trying hard to keep my eyelids from bailing on me! I’m actually trying to get this desperate housewives video game to work. However it too has decided to give me a hard time. So now Im stuck downloading DirectX off the net from God knows where!! Why am I doing this??? God knows.. Anyway I’ve been sitting here praying that this wont take long. But only freaking 5% has downloaded!! I CANT!! Help me!! Anyway now Im really giving up on keeping awake. At least Im not writing something like afutdfibmbajk. before I write something like dfguisdfyne, Im gonna leave. Good nite ppl! Deihfahkhsk…

~ Aquamarine

olá!

 

Ok. So here goes nothing! Finally I’m writing in this blog we were imagining a couple of days ago.. it was quite an exercise gettign this blog all ready, however we are still not familiar with the details. It’ll work out as time goes. Ok now im trying to write somethign interesting and not bore you people with all this jazz. Well it’s gonna be me and my best pal who r going to illustrate our lives on this blog, which maybe intersting for some of u ppl while may not be for others.. Am juggling about 50 things at once now. And I also have been reading the last sentence about 53 times trying to figure out what to write next each time I deviated from the blog sense of mind. Anyway i guess Im not gonna get that far at this rate. So mayb I’l try this again some other time when I’m more at peace. So see u guys later! Peace and I’m out!

 ~ Aquamarine