Grouch…

Ugh.. This whole holiday has been a total bummer. A one month holiday dragged on in a mind numblingly boring manner. I was looking forward for this time to come and whoosh its almost over and I suddenly realized there’s only 2 weeks left to go!!! Funny how time flies.. Ahhh life’s sooo unfair.. first of all it was the exam burden which made me cram my head over everything just to make sure I end up with decent grades so I can end up going home safe.. and no my parents aren’t demons, they are very understanding folks ive ever come across.. but still I don’t wanna let them down..(dutiful daughter eh? lol) and the task wasn’t any easier (like DUH!!) after so much of effort to revise a whole lotta stuff with so little time, with so many days of hard work put in to it and weeks of sleepless nights and suffering just to keep in mind some stuff which I don’t see will help me in any way in the future. I sooo hate the government for making us go through all this rat race which is so frustrating and overwhelming.. So basically I needed this holiday to chill and refresh myself and my mind from everything I went through during the last few weeks of the term.. hmph..

I thought the definition of a holiday was a period of recreation, a fabulous time filled with heavenly gestures and moments. Which includes meeting up with a clique of friends for a movie or hanging out for lunch with the gang or walk on the beach and end up chasing each other or go for a game or something like that!! But instead im spending my holidays going for tuition/extra/ revision classes every waking moment and coming home dead tired at the end of each day, doing home work, pass papers, projects, getting ready for mock exams and again waking up the next morning for another days proceeds of classes. And this aint the holiday I was craving for..!! ARRRGHH..!!

Life is truly a battle and im figuring out how hard it is to survive by simply fighting them all, I seriously cant take it anymore its just a goal after another and I don’t see an end towards it.. or maybe I should go to sleep one day and never end up waking the next day, or I wish I had some invisible power where I can hide my self from the rest of the world when I need to orr some extraordinary power which would help me to slide over the realities of life. Seriously I had enough.. I very badly need a break. I’m getting bored with coming to the same house, and sitting around the whole day doing nothing at all. I feel like im gonna loose my mind and forget the grounds im standing on. and yes.. Im writing this with bitterness, anger and a whole lot more negative attitudes.

Hmmm.. its pointless whining over things, I might as well live it up..!! this is what life is and this is what it has in store for me.. anyway penning this down made me feel a whole lot better. So being all positive like the saying its not the meek who shall inherit the earth, its the fighters..!! so i hope one day this will pay off and ill wait for that one day to come soon..=)

And yup.., this morning, I felt so good coz I had a good dose of sleep (haha.. no classes ) and spent most of the time chatting to my wonky pals online while listening to some soothing, surreal melodies.. alas got some time to relax away after a loong time.. I have more good news, planned a get together with friends to catch up with stuff at my place on Thursday so waiting eagerly for that.. me gonna have a blast woohoo!!

~Devil Unleashed